wildspirit's Cancer Blog
September 12, 2008
| 5th chemo treatment today | Views: 498 |
Well, 5 down and 1 to go! Long day for me, but not as crazy as Angels. I started out the day leaving the house at 9:30AM, did blood test, saw the oncologist and had chemo . . .got home at 5:15PM.
I’m so tired tonight, but not able to get to sleep yet. The steroids do this to me and it makes me crazy.
A bit of advice for anyone who gets real emotional while taking these steroids like I do . . . stay away from the Lifetime Movie Network (LMN)! Most of their movies are real tearjerkers, mushy love stories and not at all realistic, unless it’s true movie Thursday.
My life is a bit of a mess right now and a lot of it has nothing to do with the cancer. Well, except I’m sure the fact that I have cancer and I get so emotional, it causes me to think about EVERYTHING in my life . . . the good, the bad and the ugly and right now “the good” is loosing!
But it’s OK, I’ll get it all figured out one of these days.
Hugs to everyone,
Wendy
07.30.08 - 
Thanks for your support -
Somehow we will all get through this and much of it will be the source of laughter. I am already laughing at my Chemo brain over sights and some of the things that made me cry.
In all of this we are Blessed!
Dear Wendy;
I am so sorry you are having a rough time of it. I am happy to hear you have 1 chemo left. Fantastic news! Is there anything we can do to help you in your quest to fix things up. It doesn’t have to be chemo, cancer related to speak here. Perhaps you have a problem that someone on here might have a few ideas. Just wanted to let you know that this is pretty free here, and I figure if someone has cancer, they can pretty much figure out anything that comes their way. Sometimes it takes another person’s point of view to give perspective. Just a thought. AND BAD days are expected here. If you don’t have them, something is missing I think. Let us know what we can do Wendy. Weezie
Yeah! Only 1 more! I was sooo happy when I had that last one!
I have the same problem with sleeping. I’ll be so tired, and then get in bed and just stare at the ceiling for hours. Or toss and turn. Its been over a month since my last chemo, but I still have that issue. It could also be menopause…I get very emotional. I can’t tell you the last time I watched a movie and didn’t cry at some point. I stopped watching the news because all the bad stuff they report upsets me.
I didn’t talk about it in much detail. But when my cancer showed up, I was about to walk out of my marriage. I stayed because I was scared-being alone during everything, losing insurance. Robin knew, but let me stay anyway. I’ve changed alot and now things are much better. And we’re staying together. We still have a lot to work on, though. But at the beginning of treatment I was more worried about what I should do in my relationship. I vented my cancer concerns here. All the things I felt that I couldn’t say to those around me, I wrote down. Here or in a journal. (Some things I couldn’t say here). It felt good just to get those thoughts and feelings out of me, even if the problem hadn’t been solved.
Don’t be afraid to share. Like Weezie said, maybe someone can offer some help and insight. And if you don’t want to post for everyone to read, my email is littleprincess1@hughes.net.
Dear Wendi; a just got an email in my inbox that tells me you decided to give the story here. I’m glad you took my advice. I will be going there right now to post my thoughts. I have one question off topic. I see you only support angelwings, is that because you only want to support her? If that’s not the case you have to click when it asks if you want to support that person, otherwise you won’t get emailed when your buddy posts a new topic. Just curious that’s all.
Weezie
Hi Weezie,
Thank you for bringing up the topic of supporting people. I wasn’t sure how that worked and couldn’t even remember how I added anglewings in the first place!
I think I’ve got it figured out and will be adding people to the list of who I support.
Thank you,
Wendy
Well, would someone please tell me what it means to “support” someone. I still don’t understand.
Love reading everyone’s blog and posts.
Wish I only had 1 chemo to go, but 6 aint all that bad. WEll, that’s a lie—it makes me feel bad and that’s de truth. tee hee hee
You know, I find that I don’t sleep well either Wednesday when I begin chemo—like tomorrow. I just can’t sleep; it seems I am wired and all I do is lay there and think about everything that happened in my life. I have to get up and do something or go crazy. The next day I sleep about 12 hours to make up for it.
It is great that you are finished with chemo. I do wish the best for you.
Love, hugs and prayers.
SweetE2